October 30, 2004

You Do All Things Well by Chris Tomlin

Verse 1:
Mountain maker, ocean tamer,
Glimpses of You burn in my eyes
The worship of heave fills up the skies

You made it all
Said "Let there be"
And there was all that we see
The sound of Your voice
The works of Your hands
You do all things well
You do all things well
You do all things well

Verse 2:
Star creator, wind breather
The strokes of Your beauty brushed through the clouds
Light from the heavens touching the ground

Imagination runs wild, and breathes the breath of life
Across the fields, across the miles

I encourage all of you to get the new Chris Tomlin disc, "Arriving". It's a very good cd -- of 11 songs that you can fully enjoy in praising God while driving, and at least 8-9 songs that could be implemented into worship time. I am telling you right now that you will be hooked the instant you throw the cd into your cd player. And this is coming from a guy who gets sick of cd's after one month -- I have been listening to this cd every day while in the car, at home, at work. Non-stop.

The words are very powerful and challenging, and the tunes are fantastic. This is truly a great cd.

I also ordered the sheet music, chords and overhead book for the cd and I am very happy with my purchase. Next up... cut capo!

October 26, 2004


Is it me or has blogger become progressively worse since google took over? It's so slow now, and I almost always 'notepad' my blogs before posting because I just know it's going to crash when I try to post, and then when i hit 'back' my post will be gone.

It's been awhile since I blogged and the reason for that was the above reason -- typing out a really long post only to have it completely disappear into thin air. Google/Pyra labs -- if you are reading this, please fix the problem. Why is it that whenever really great companies become rich, they start to suck arse? Even GMail is incredibly slow and crashes quite often.

the old days

So the akt and I were reminiscing the old days, like really old days. Primary school days. It's kinda funny that we both read a lot of the same novels, as I'm sure many of you can testify.. like all the Judy Blume and Beverly Cleary books, and the Gordon Korman books. "This Can't be Happening at Macdonald Hall" (Bruno & Boots!!), Ramona Quimby, and Encyclopedia Brown.

Am I the only one here who thinks Encyclopedia Brown was a chinese kid?

And there were other books.. Superfudge. Beware of the Fish. Otherwise Known As Sheila The Great. Tales Of A Fourth Grade Nothing. All those "Brain" books, "The Incredible Brain", "The Great Brain". That kid rocked..

Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys. I swear I think I must've read over 20 Hardy Boys books.. at least, all the ones our library had. There was even a couple when Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys worked together on a case or two. Sweet Valley High, Babysitter's Club <--- these are akt books, I didn't read these.

Statement: ebrian did not read "Sweet Valley High" or "Babysitter's Club" books.

And teachers who picked on us.. I had this grade 5 teacher, man he hated me so much..

And kids who picked on us. Kids we picked on. I punched a girl once, in grade 3 [blushes]. I'm not ashamed though, she was a big girl! But in general, I didn't get in fights. I was pushed around a lot, as a scrawny little chinese kid. Or I should just say "The Chinese Kid". Yeah, that was me from grades 1-5 or so.. the chinese kid.

Play Day's, those were always fun.

Also I remember when we were about grade 3 or 4, that's when Sandylion came out with furry stickers, and that was just crazy, because every day at recess we would have this MASSIVE "marketplace" where kids would be trading furry stickers. Of course me being chinese and my parents being practical adults who didn't spend money on anything fun, I had ZERO stickers to trade. I didn't even have a sticker book, I remember carrying around a sheet of paper hoping someone would hand out freebies. So I ended up with all the crappy stickers.. the happy faces, hearts, squares, circles. How terribly sad..

Mental note: When you have kids, remember how you felt at the furry sticker marketplace, when your kid asks you if you will buy him/her a "[insert trendy kid's toy here]".

What about stuffed animals, did you any of you have a "special someone"? I had this little lion guy, named "Zoobeedoo". He's kickin' around here somewhere. I'm sure if I clean my room I'll find him. He was my pal for sure.. he brought me through some of the tough times. I'm sure I must've had some good talks with him. I think I really missed out on that boat too though.. I mean Zoobee was cool and all, but I really couldn't hug him. He was too small to hug.. Pinkie, the big pink dog was really the one I used for hugging. Err.. I think I've said too much.

Oh yeah -- Sports. Yes, a very 'manly' topic. I was as bad at sports then as I am now, except back then I could run like the wind. All my base-hits in T-Ball were because I could run fast.. yes, the ball slowly trickled towards the second baseman, I was already on my way to third base. That was me.. the speedster who couldn't hit if his life depended on it, even though the ball just sits there on top of the T.

I already had my asthma even back then, but I could still run pretty fast. I liked being "IT" in tag for instance, because I could catch anyone, rather easily in fact (no touch-backs!). Long distance was my worst enemy though..

Well that was fun, I feel old now.

October 21, 2004

can't type

I have had trouble typing with my left had the last few days, and I blame Chris Tomlin. Yes, it's Chris' fault that I can't type, because I can't stop playing songs from Arriving. Indescribable, Holy Is The Lord, How Great Is Our God and Unfailing Love. Well, those are all the chords I've been able to find. The Way I Was Made also just came out, but I'm still learning that one.

I also blame Jon for sending me the link to the New Song Cafe, which has caused all this fuss over learning how to play just like Chris, which has really enlightened me in mixing things up a little bit with the chords and fingering while strumming. I must've played through Indescribable about 40 times in the past 3 days as a result.

strumming vs. picking

I've also come to the realization that I may never ever learn now to pick, because I love strumming so much more. That sound that it makes.. the strumming, i LoVE it.. Maybe someday I may be inspired to pick. Maybe.

Although I supposed the chicks dig the picking songs..

October 19, 2004

word of the day: anthemic

There's no real definition for the word "anthemic", and yet it surely has a meaning. The suffix "-ic" means of, relating to, or characterized by. So if a song is anthemic, it is of anthem, related to an anthem, characterized by an anthem.

An anthem is "a hymn of praise or loyalty", "a choral composition having a sacred or moralizing text in English", or "a modern ballad accompanied by rock music instrumentation".

I suppose it's fitting, then, that Chris Tomlin describes the song Indescribable as anthemic.

by Laura Story

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea,
Creations revealing Your majesty.
From the colors of Fall to the fragrance of Spring
Ev'ry creature unique in the song that it sings.

All exclaiming:

Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing, God.
All powerful, untamable
Awestruck, we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing, God.

Who has told ev'ry lightning bolt where it should go?
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow?
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light?
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night?

None can fathom:

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing, God.
All powerful, untamable
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing, God.

You are amazing, God.

(song will be posted later)

October 18, 2004

ben affleck

It seems that I haven't been all that fair to Ben. I did a bit of research today, to see just how many bad movies Ben Affleck has starred in, and how many good movies. Mind you, because of my prejudice against Ben I haven't seen a whole lot of his movies -- because quite frankly, I try my best to avoid them.

I think ultimately the reason for my prejudice is the sheer disgust I have of the bad movies he's been in. I mean, when they're bad, they're REALLY BAD. Following up this post I will name a few others whose movies I tend to avoid out of sheer prejudice.

Bad Movies with Ben Affleck
Daredevil (2003) ... Mat Murdock/Daredevil
Changing Lanes (2002) ... Gavin Banek
*Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back (2001) ... Holden McNeil/Himself
Bounce (2000) ... Buddy Amaral
Reindeer Games (2000) ... Rudy Duncan
Forces of Nature (1999) ... Ben Holmes

*denotes a bad movie where it wasn't Ben's fault

Decent Movies with Ben Affleck
Pearl Harbour (2001) ... Capt. Rafe McCawley
^Boiler Room (2000) ... Jim Young
Dogma (1999) ... Bartleby
Armageddon (1998) ... A.J. Frost
^Shakespeare in Love (1998) ... Ned Alleyn
^Good Will Hunting (1997) ... Chuckie Sullivan
Chasing Amy (1997) ... Holden McNeil
Mallrats (1995) ... Shannon Hamilton

^denotes a good movie that really had nothing to do with Ben Affleck

So, from the above lists, you can see first off, that Ben is due to make a cameo appearance in a good movie, and, he has had a bad movie every year for 5 straight years. I haven't seen Jersey Girl (2004) or Gigli (2003) yet but I have a feeling that when I do I can just add it to the Bad Movies list.

Also, word of caution is that when I say "Decent Movie", I don't mean 'memorable movies'. I really mean "okay" movies, as in ones I wouldn't gouge my eyes out if someone forced me to watch them.

Look, I'm not targeting Ben Affleck. In fact I like Ben. I admire that he's cool, plays poker, and is a die-hard Sox fan. The real trouble with Ben is he keeps picking these really bad scripts. Maybe he needs to fire his agent, or maybe he needs to spend some more time with is buddy Matt Damon (who has a pretty nice resume). The last time Ben has produced a solid effort was in 1997 in Chasing Amy. He's due..!
carpal tunnel

Well folks, it's back. After playing nearly 15 hours worth of Knights of the Old Republic over the weekend, I cannot squeeze my right hand into a fist without considerable pain. I can't hoist myself out of a chair with my right hand.. I can't push anything with it.

It has been worse, remember 4 years ago when I was unable to turn a doorknob or even get dressed with that hand.

I guess the sad thing is how early I have this. I'm sure many of you have had the same sort of problems, it's not just isolated to gamers. I remember Sylvia had a cast on her wrist, and she's not a gamer. And I'd say that compared to others I take care of my positioning and 'computer' posture better than most, due to my lengthy exposure to computers.

In the end, the solution of this is to get a wearable computer some day, when it is affordable.

basketball tickets

I bought a slew of Raptors tickets this year, some with Kenric, some on my own. I think we got a little carried away and just spent way too much so we have a few games available for purchase. The seats are baseline upper bowl, front row. Ticket value is $36 but I'm willing to part with them for $25 each.

Chicago Bulls - February 16, 2004
Boston Celtics - April 17, 2004 (sold)
New York Knicks - November 24, 2004
Milwaukee Bucks - January 7, 2004

Leave me an email or comment if you're interested. Thanks.

October 12, 2004

Star Wars Galaxies

For those of you who don't know, SWG is an online game similar to the game I've been playing called City of Heroes. Anyway, someone made this video from it, a music video:


It's absolutely hilarious.. although, not really for the faint hearted. It's wrong on so many levels.. but funny. Don't watch if you don't have sound turned up. Keep in mind that to do this they would've had to choreograph 3 different people (3 computers).

October 11, 2004


This is a sports blog entry.

Last night, in "dramatic" fashion, the New England Patriots became the first team in the history of the NFL to win 19 straight games. They defeated yet another awesome team in the Miami Dolphins, 27-10.

Who are we kidding? The Dolphins are a hapless team, led by a QBBC who be lucky to make the CFL. Their backfield was decimated when Ricky Williams shockingly retired 2 months ago.

In fact if we look into the last 19 games by the New England Pretenders, you have to wonder whether or not the NFL schedule maker has an allegience with the works for the Patriots. From the time of September 11, this team has been set up to win. I'm not taking away the fact that Brady is a great QB, or that their defense is stellar. But let's delve into this so-called record.

Game 1: Pats 38, Titans 30. Okay, I'll give them this one. Titans were headed for a 12-4 season and this was a great game to watch. Ty Law had a great game, clinching it at the end with the interception.

Game 2: Pats 17, Giants 6. Wow.. what a test. Pats D came through again in this game, intercepting Collins 4 times. Giants finished 4-12 last year.

Game 3: Pats 19, Dolphins 13. A pretty close game, I give this one to the defense again, who came up with big plays to stop Ricky Williams from amounting to anything. Dolphins finished 10-6.

Game 4: Patriots 9, Browns 3. Golly, another huge test for the Pats. Browns finished 5-11.

Game 5: Pats 30, Broncos 26. This was the second test out of 5 games for the Pats and they came through, on MNF no less. This game was all Brady.. an impressive win against a playoff-bound team. Broncos finished 10-6.

Game 6: Pats 12, Cowboys 0. Third test of the year. Defense intercepted Quincy Carter 3 times.. 'Boys finished 10-6.

Game 7: Pats 23, Texans 20. This was a pathetic showing for the Pats, who eked it out in OT against a very, very bad team. Houston finished 5-11.

Game 8: Pats 38, Colts 34. These games are where champions are made. Brady came up huge in this one. Defense isn't rarely much of a factor when you're facing Peyton Manning. Colts finished 12-4.

Game 9: Pats 12, Dolphins 0. Another big game for the defense. To be completely honest, I don't know how the Dolphins came so close to making the playoffs. Jay Fiedler is awful and so was Ricky last season. No wonder he retired. Dolphins 10-6.

Game 10: Pats 27, Jags 13. Easy game. Jags 5-11.

Game 11: Pats 21, Jets 16. Another easy game. Jets 6-10.

Game 12: Pats 31, Bills 10. *Yawn*. Bills 6-10.

Game 13: Pats 17, Titans 14. Naturally you can't fix the schedule of the playoffs. Pats beat the Titans in this one, Brady defeating the MVP Steve McNair.

Game 14: Pats 24, Colts 14. Another huge game for Brady, defending the other MVP Peyton Manning.

Game 15: Pats 32, Panthers 29. Anyone watching the superbowl last year knew that the Panthers had no chance, but the analysts made it out to be a great battle. These two teams match up well because they have great defenses and QBs with a minimalistic approach to the sport. So what happens is when they play eachother, both QBs have to step up to show the other one up.

Delhomme received a lot of credit during Panthers' playoff run, similar to the way Brady did earlier on in his career when he simply didn't deserve any. Whether or not Delhomme will one day turn out as good as Brady remains to be seen. The Panthers are 1-3 this season.

Game 16: Pats 27, Colts 24. A new season, a new schedule. Brady was huge in this game and it actually changed my mind about him. He definitely deserves some credit. I still hate the fact that he is a "do just enough" QB. It probably explains the teams' overall success though, because he is always well-rested. Pats are 4-1 this year. 12-4 last year.

Game 17: Pats 23, Cards 12. Eh. Cards were 4-12 last year, and 1-4 this year. It's hard to fathom why the defending champs are being scheduled to play teams like this.

Game 18: Pats 31, Bills 17. Once again, the schedule makers defy all logic and give us another stinker. Bills were 6-10 last year and 0-4 this year.

Game 19: Pats 24, Dolphins 10. As I mentioned before you can't blame the schedule because it was made before Ricky retired.

The Patriots have gone 19-0 in the past 19 games. The first 12 games they won against teams with a combined record of 95-97. The Pats finished 9-7 the previous year, a winning pct of 0.562. Their schedule was against teams that were 0.515 (2002). Close. Then followed that up with 3 excellent playoff games against Titans, Colts, Panthers.

The next 4 games though, have been disappointing. Yes, they played the Colts first, but the next 2 games made very little sense. Why are the defending champions playing the Arizona Cardinals, a team that has a 5-16 record in their last 21 games? If they're going to play a team in the NFC West, why the Cards and not the Seahawks or Rams?

19 games is impressive but I cannot sit here and tell you that the Pats deserve this kind of credit. Why have the defending champs, a team that finished 14-2 last season, playing teams at a combined record of 32-32?

Next game will be good though, Seattle against the Patriots, a prelude to what's to come at the next Superbowl.

Last night I was invited to Kenric's for Thanksgiving dinner. I haven't eaten to that degree of fullness for a long, long time. Thanks for the invite and thanks auntie Shelby for the awesome food.

Thanksgiving is great time for spending time with loved ones. Just hanging out and being with my friends was really great. Of course I'd trade it all in to spend the night with my family but that isn't going to happen, so I have to go with the next best thing. I've very grateful for Kenric's friendship this past year and was really happy to spend Thanksgiving with him.

spiderman revisited

Just for the record, in the comics, Spiderman has faced Wolverine, and the only reason Spiderman didn't defeat Wolverine was because he came to the conclusion that they only way to beat him was to KILL him, and so he gave up because as we all know, Spiderman is against killing.

So here's my statement for Parker vs. Logan: Parker CAN beat Logan if it is a fight to the death, but if it is just a fight, the fight would last until one of them got tired. Spiderman would pummel Wolverine because he's quicker (his spider-sense) and stronger (can lift approx. 12 tons compared to Wolverine's 1 ton), but Wolverine has the healing ability.

I've been reading a lot about Spiderman and Superman and it seems Superman would beat Spiderman afterall, because it's just way too hard to find kryptonite in the first place. Apparently it's tough to get your hands on that stuff.. BUT, since Batman can beat Superman, and Spiderman can beat Batman, by that logic, Spiderman could beat Superman, by getting to Batman first.

But to deal with the issue of "hotness". In my opinion it's too difficult to tell because they all originate from comics, so it really just depends on the artist. Unless you go by movies actors, which I cannot allow to play a big factor. But here's another way of looking at 'hotness', which is looking at their girls.

Spiderman has Mary Jane Watson, who is of course hot, because she's an actress, a beautiful redhead. And she calls him "Tiger". That's got to count for something. Kirsten Dunst is a cutie and has had one nomination for a Golden Globe.

Superman has Lois Lane. Yeah she's alright, she's a journalist though not even a TV anchor. Obviously she's not good looking enough to even be on TV. Margot Kidder, Teri Hatcher.. not good looking, and no significant nominations to date.

Wolverine has NO ONE. Jean Grey chose the loser Cyclops over Wolverine.. how sad is that. Wolverine had some pretty "intimate" encounters with Sabertooth..

Looking at each superhero and who they're with gives significant information on their hotness. Therefore Spiderman wins, even in hotness.

October 10, 2004

manchurian candidate

I remember when I was little, watching movies with my dad, he'd be able to figure out exactly what was going to happen next. I could never understand that. There'd be this huge plot twist -- or it'd be a movie that I'd seen already and my dad would point in out in the beginning of the movie. He'd always tell me that he's seen too many movies and that eventually they all end up being the same.

I think Manchurian Candidate was a great movie. It was well acted and well written, the footage and direction was great. It's just a shame that I've seen too many movies so the great plot twists and shockers were obvious to me. I remember even thinking that during the movie, like "man, this would've been such a great movie if I hadn't already seen this movie, that movie, etc."

It makes me want to see the original, which starred the ol' Chairman of the Board, Frank Sinatra as Capt./Maj. Bennett Marco, in place of Denzel Washington. I could imagine if I'd seen a movie like this in the 60s, I would've thought it was unbelievable!


I have been spending a lot of time gaming this past week, because I purchased Star Wars: Knights Of The Old Republic (KOTOR). KOTOR started out really crappy but as my friend pointed out, once you get to control jedi's, the whole thing changes. He was right.. I love this game now.

KOTOR is a 3rd-person view Role Playing Game. It's great because I've never played anything quite like it because it's a Star Wars based game. All the other RPGs were medieval setting, other than Fallout which was, well, unlike any other game I can think of.


We made sushi rolls over at Duncan's today. And then we played Gamecube, mine which I brought over. We played a bit of Smash Brothers Melee and then moved onto Bomberman. I love bomberman, that's so much fun!


Friday night we were at Stan's place jamming. That was also fun, I had some fun with everyone by singing in falsetto with the girls. It's amazing how badly effected I was from my last bad cold, it completely wiped out my voice and kept me from hitting those high notes for 3-4 months!

October 06, 2004

and now, back to the posts you've all come to know and love

batman vs. spiderman

I've said many times that Batman is just a rich guy with gadgets. But you look at him and you realize he's a lot more than that. He's driven by sadness and regret, preying on evil-doers because it's what's right. He's smart and very resourceful. He's beaten the entire Justice League -- Superman, Wonderwoman, Green Lantern, Martian, Flash, etc.

But on the other hand Spiderman has superpowers. He has super-strength, speed and agility, and his spider-sense allows him to react 40 times faster than a regular human being. And he's beaten several X-Men.

But when it comes down to a matchup between the two, I think it's pretty even but Spiderman wins out. Batman was able to defeat the Justice League because he used each of their weaknesses against them, but Spiderman doesn't have weaknesses.

Spiderman could beat anyone. That's my opinion. He is the best superhero by far.

October 03, 2004

if the world revolved around me..

then everyone would have nice things to say about me, and i would always be treated with kindness and generosity. people would pray for me, and care about me, and go out of their way to make my life easier and happier. spend time with me, make me laugh and cry.

but -- the world doesn't revolve around me. and so I'm ever so thankful for all the people around me who have been such a vital part of my life.

this past year and a half, being in gladys' small group has been a blessing. i keep thinking it's like "the end of an era", but now I see it's just the beginning. today i received a packet of some notes left by some of the people: words of wisdom, encouragement and thanks. well since i foolishly skipped out on friday, i will post my notes here.

gladys - thanks for teaching me the importance of balance. i am very grateful for this lesson and constant reminder. thank you for your selflessness and personal sacrifice of time and effort in leading the group. what i admire most about you is your constant pursuit of knowledge and of God.

anita - thanks for your constant words of encouragement. for the late night chats and for humbling (dissing) me all the time. thanks for driving me around when i didn't feel like driving! you always have really insightful things to say during the meetings and it always sparks a good discussion. what i admire most about you is your genuine concern of others peoples' spiritual/well-being. and being able to put up with a ridiculing family -- i don't know how you do it..

"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God."

kevin - your freakish memory is astounding! you have been like an older brother to me. thanks for being a great friend and for being a positive and challenging influence on me.

and the rest.. you have been great friends to me. aside from small group we've hung out together and played sports, sung together, jammed, played video games. these are memories that i will cherish forever. thanks for being there.

October 02, 2004

friday morning

Yesterday I was in no mood for anything. The day started with me sleeping and taking my grandparents to see an eye doctor. Grampa had complained of soreness in his eyes months ago and we booked this guy (a specialist) for an appointment. First of all, he was so far away. College and Bathurst! So first it took a long time to get there. Then they didn't have parking so I had to circle around the block until I found one. Had to park close so GPs wouldn't have to walk far.

Then we go in and it's another 30 minute wait, even though we were right in time for our appointment.

Finally when we saw the doctor he just said his eyes were dry and to buy some drops. Great.

friday afternoon

After that I took my grandparents out for dim sum. We ate at Furama, which is just west of Yonge/Steeles. I didn't get to have much food, but it was enjoyable. The time I was rushing though because I still had to go back to work!

Work was crazy.. I got there at 2 and it was non-stop til around 5:30. Since we're rolling out the application to the different groups in parallel, and doing training all week at the same time I hadn't been able to do my own work so I had to catch up. And then of course the users.. as system admin it's crazy the number of complaints and confused calls I get. Endless..

I was really looking forward to small group so I could unwind. I was really looking for a time of relaxation and singing.. but it turns out it was a prayer/sharing night. Which is fine, but I really would prefer singing..

Then I heard from Kenric that kyrios was doing just that, so I thought hey, I can go to that instead.

what really happened

What really happened was I had dinner with Kenric and Duncan at T&T's food court (which by the way is great food and low low prices). Then afterwards I went and filled up the gas for my car, and then went to Kyrios.

But at Kyrios I was kicked out, because apparently they have a policy of "no adults". At first I thought Yvonne was just kidding, but she was serious.. Dejected, I sulked back to my car. It was either that or show up at small group late with a program where I didn't really want to be, or go home. I also needed to be home by 10 so I could call my brother for his birthday. So I drove home.

Luckily Jason Morant really lifted my spirits on the way back. When I got home, I went to the DVD rental place and got Daredevil and Matchstick Men. I played some guitar and computer, and watched Daredevil, stopped to watch Justice League Unlimited, and then back to Daredevil.

daredevil review

I must say I heard some really bad things about this movie. And also going by my hunch that all Ben Affleck movies suck, and also that all Colin Farrell movies suck -- I figured this was going to be a double-whammy of suckiness. I mean all that's missing is Pauly Shore right?

Well, it was the best movie I've ever seen. The acting was excellent and the plot made total sense. The action and fighting scenes were superb and the computer graphics were really cool. The dialogue/script was top-notch.

Okay, now look back at that paragraph and replace:
'best' with 'worst', 'excellent' with 'atrocious', 'total' with 'no', 'superb' with 'awful', 'cool' with 'crappy' and 'top-notch' with 'just what you'd expect from a movie starring Ben Affleck and Colin Farrell. Pure garbage. These two guys are officially blacklisted. I still plan on watching Alexander but I will cover my ears whenever Farrell speaks. I guess this was God's way of punishing me for skipping small group.'

I give this movie 10/10 stars, because that's how many stars I see after banging my head against the wall repeatedly to punish myself for picking such a horrible movie.